i am going to fail my examsssssssss

Come Back

he's gone n i dunno when im gonna c him again.. everytime i walk past his block i look up at his window n the white light that's usually turned on is now off and all i c is the darkness and i can feel the emptiness of his room from where i stand and i know that emptiness too well. Who's to judge who u can have feelings for.. if its your best friend or if its a complete stranger. It catches u unprepared, this feeling, you don't know till its too much, too deep.. too late. U dont know why.. u dont know how.. but u just know. And u know u'll never be the same again. You can't believe a complete stranger has such an effect on u.. someone u've never spoken too but feels lyk u've know them forever. Why do we have to say good bye.. I hate this. Hate not knowing. Hate not seeing. Hate being far away..

Should i stay or should i go

How did it get to this, to be so smitten and feel pure bliss
A smile that's all it took, since then i wait for u to turn and look
Waitin for u to open ur eyes and see, this undeniable effect u have on me
How is it possible to know every inch of your face
Im tryna remember how i got here in the first place
Eventhough there have been others in between, others that make me wanna convince the person within
Others, that in comparison, seem so right for me after so long
But for once in my life i'm not choosing right over wrong
There have been moments, when im convinced this feeling will go away
And think all i need is a distraction, another toy to play
So i surround myself with people, hoping to be free
But by doing so i only get more tangled up in this web of emotions, unable to breathe
So i close my eyes and suddenly everything becomes clear again
As everyone else falls away, there you still remain.

Deepavali nite at Annalakshmi :)

Deepavali nite at Annalakshmi :)
Originally uploaded by royal ragi.

Me in my supposedly "jang" saree.. but i don't care.. its pink! :)

-Not if i can help it-

Was snoopin arnd my darlin os's blog n there was quiz on "How will u Die?" n i took it. Results as follows :

You scored as Bomb. Your death will be by bombing. You will probably be an innocent bystander, not doing anything wrong and not a person who was targeted at, just in the wrong place at the wrong time. Bomb 73% Suicide 67% Disease 60% Posion 53% Gunshot 53% Stabbed 53% Natural Causes 47% Eaten 47% Cut Throat 40% Disappear 40% Accident 27% Drowning 27% Suffocated 7% How Will You Die?? created with QuizFarm.com

Excuse meee?? Anyone who knows me well knows that im absolutely terrified abt all the terrorist attacks that have been going around.. And last month wit the whole bomb scare in Perth City.. i almost din leave my room. I refuse to die from a bombing!! I REFUSE!!! Im not going down that way man nah-uhhh!! Stupid terrorists! GROW UP! Im getting hysterical juz thinking abt it.. OMG.. i realli cant die this way.. :(

Happy Deepavaliiiiiii!!! :)

Heyyyy.. deepavali vaazhthukal! haha mannn this is when i miss home. I juz wanna go back for one day for deepavali n come back.. Miss the movie marathon on central the night b4.. wit some lame ass local variety show to usher in the festival.. miss prayers in the morning where my dad does the whole oil thing.. i miss the things that i do for deepavali every yr when i was back home. Heh it realli sucks being away at this time of the year. But i hafta admit my day turned out pretty ok. Went to Annalakshmi for dinner ( decked in some "jang" saree) n chilled for a bit.. i know it doesn't sound like much but it was pretty cool. Better than nothing i guess. Anyways im not realli in the mood to celebrate.. stressed abt upcoming exams.. hafta get back to studying now. 3 more wks.. i cant believe its come down to 3 more wks.. it still amazes me how time passes by so damn quickly over here. N for the millionth time im acknowledging that im prob in a state of denial.. i hate thinking abt leaving Currie.. i realli do love it here.. minus the food bit. Oh well.. its all part of growing up i guess. Speakin of growing up.. guess which of ya favourite girl's bdae's comin up reallllll sooonnnn :D hahah

K..gonna get back to da books n ilectures. Thank God for ilectures man.. they shud b compulsory for all units.

Im outtie.

My Awesome Threesome

My Awesome Threesome
Originally uploaded by royal ragi.

my three darlingz.. wish ya'll were here

-Besties-

its been a long time since ive posted updates on my life. Maybe its cuz nothing's been happening.. nothing interesting anyways. Its been a weird past couple of days.. depressing.. this weird annoying nagging feeling in me is not going away. I miss my friends. I miss my besties. I miss sho.. so much.. i need her right now.. right now when i feel like i'm losing so much.. and i need someone to talk too.. someone to turn too.. she's the only one who knows all the right things to say. Homesickness is the worst feeling ever.. cuz there's no cure. I wish i cud juz fly back now and see my girlz.. I think i'd be lost without them. The ones that r always there for me.. kaart - the nicest person in the whole world and an absolute sweetheart that i m so fond off.. malibu - my darling niece that surprises me with her affection at the most unexpected times.. sho- my total essential.. the one that i can pms on and mood swing with and she'd still be there for me at the end of it all backing me up. I dun think i realli ever tell em enough how much i love them.. how much i look up to them and admire them.. my inspirations. The ones that have saved me a countless times. The ones that make time for me n meet me no matter what they're doing when im depressed n need to talk to someone. I miss them lyk hell right now. Being alone realli is the worst feeling in the world. I guess my one consolation is that they're just a phone call away.. a phone call and three weeks away. I know that if they were here.. i'd b having one of the best birthdays ever..i remember my 20th birthday.. i had a quiet one watchin a movie n hangin wit sho in town.. n goin swensons for supper.. it was so low key.. but still so much fun.. juz me n ma shnowmie. I knoe i can always count on her for anything n everything. Shola.. ure amazing la.. ure always patiently hearing me whine abt paiyan.. and totally supportive.. i luff u. I cant wait to come back n chill laaa.. i juz wish ya'll were here.. i hate crappy birthdays.. i know its selfish but i on my bdae i want to be all abt me.. naturally. I make the plans .. n everyone else goes along with it. Isnt that the way it shud be? I wish ya'll were here for me to bully ya'll into doing something ridiculous for my bdae. I think im juz depressed cuz i know im gonna haf a crappy bdae.. its ok.. ya'll can make it up to me when i get back. I want a party.. ok.. juz da four of us.. Missin ya'll to itsy bits :(

yummy lingerie for saleeeee

Guyysss.. my darlin hot ofness(private joke) Miss Kitten is sellin some pretty cool lingerie.. so pls visit this site http://www.waitingtoconnect.com/karmickitten.bk/ and BUY!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wtf?!?!?

OMG!!! AUSTRALIA!!! WAT IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLEEEEEE!?!?!?! I cannot believe that Anne got voted off aussie idol.. wat the hell!?!?!? WAT THE HELL!!!!!??? This is a bloody joke mate! It was bad enuff last wk with Emily in the bottom 3.. and now this?!? And Lee's performance last nite was sooooooo BLEHHH! He should haf been in the bottom 3 in stead of Anne!! And Daniel obviously had to go! Yea he sang well last night but his performance in the previous wks was just average. Anne's a star! She's a hottie who's got so much attitude n such a great voice and personality AND THIS IS CRAP!!!!!!!! I cant believe this... its bullshit.

fav song of the moment.. Don't Stop by M.J

Lovely Is The Feelin' Now Fever,
Temperatures Risin' Now
Power (Ah Power) Is The Force The Vow
That Makes It Happen It Asks No Questions Why
(Ooh) So Get Closer (Closer Now) To My Body Now
Just Love Me 'Til You Don't Know How (Ooh)
Keep On With The Force Don't Stop Don't Stop 'Til You Get Enough
Keep On With The Force Don't Stop Don't Stop 'Til You Get Enough
Keep On With The Force Don't Stop Don't Stop 'Til You Get Enough
Keep On With The Force Don't Stop Don't Stop 'Til You Get Enough

Touch Me And I Feel On Fire
Ain't Nothin' Like A Love Desire (Ooh)
I'm Melting (I'm Melting) Like Hot Candle Wax
Sensation (Ah Sensation) Lovely Where We're At (Ooh)
So Let Love Take Us Through The Hours
I Won't Be Complanin' 'Cause This Is Love Power (Ooh)
Keep On With The Force Don't Stop Don't Stop 'Til You Get Enough
Keep On With The Force Don't Stop Don't Stop 'Til You Get Enough
Keep On With The Force Don't Stop Don't Stop 'Til You Get Enough
Keep On With The Force Don't Stop Don't Stop 'Til You Get Enough (Ooh)

Heartbreak Enemy Despise
Eternal (Ah Eternal) Love Shines In My Eyes (Ooh)
So Let Love Take Us Through The Hours
I Won't Be Complanin' (No No) '
Cause Your Love Is Alright, Alright

fabulous four

fabulous four
Originally uploaded by royal ragi.

Almost all my favourite girlz.. missing one..

~InsomniA~

Current time : 5.08pm
Currently listenin too: Hypnotic by syleena n fabolous( i lurvee this song)

My body clock is majorly screwed up.. been trying to get to sleep at a decent hour for the longest time but it's just not working out. I can't seem to fall asleep b4 6am.. and then i end up oversleeping n missin my classes.. i need to get my clock back on track! Right now i'm so stoned cuz i slept at 8am n woke up at 2pm(n missed half a lecture and a tute) which is quite reasonable cuz that's abt 6 hrs of sleep..but for some reason i'm juz havin the worst headache.. i think its the stress. Its almost end of semester so all projects n presentations are due soon .. n as usual the last minute queen is rushin through her last minute stuff.

My newest dvd addiction is "Nip/Tuck".. just started watchin it last wk on dvd and im kinda hooked. The show really grows on you.. I personally don't think its as good as my other favourites like Sex and the City or O.C .. im more into the less intense kinda dramas but i have to admite Nip/Tuck is super addictive. Im done wit the first season n waitin to get the second season from Video Ezy. That is after im done wit all my assignments.. don't need anymore distraction than i already have..

Ohh how could i forgot.. it's my dad's birthday todae .. Happy Birthday Daddddyyy! I feel lyk such a useless daughter cuz i havent mailed his pressie yet.. will do it soon i promise!

Time is passin by too slowly today.. its only 5.15.. i still got an hour b4 i go down for dinner n im very tempted to take a nap but i know i mite quite possibly juz knock out.. wish there were interestin shows on T.V.. it seems like juz when i get a T.V in my room they stopped showin all the nice programs. I remember my first yr in Perth.. they used to have Sex and the City.. and Queer Eye.. and then last semester was the O.C and Desperate Housewives.. this semester when i get a T.V.. NOTHING. At first they used to air Friends at 5p.m but then they stopped.. Aussie T.V sucks la.. i miss cable!! I miss my HBO n Starworld.. n Sun T.V!!! Sho n I used to stay over at my place n watch Sun T.V at like 3 in the mornin n make fun of the "jinkachaz" and their saris n their "dance moves".. ok mebe thats a bit evil n traitorfied to our culture but im sorry.. some of the stuff is whack. But still.. good entertainment man.

Ah.. 5.20 pm.. after all that typing n only 5 mins have passed.. this is useless. M gonna go lie down n if i konk out then TOO BAD. M grumpy as usual.. my mood swings r scary. Need sleep. Need food. Need holiday.

Ta.

What's going on..

Tsunamis.. hurricanes.. n the recent Bali bombings.. wats happenin to the world today. It really scares me.. everyday on the news there's something bad happening around the world. My prayers r with all those suffering in one way or another.. and hopefully everyone else is doing the same. Its real tragic guys...wats happenin around us.. Really tragic n really scary..

Back to Uni

Spring Break.. its almost over. Two wks flashed by juz like that.. This whole year's been a real blur.. i can't believe its almost ending and 2006 is near. The last two wks were great.. i was back in Singapore for ten days.. and it was awesome. I ate allll the yummy food.. prata, kayatoast, coffee club.. SWENSONS! Ohh yum swensons!! Call me an ulu bird but i had never tried the fish and chips from swensons until i went back this time.. n shared it wit Malibu.. and YUMMMYYY.. its seriously the yummiest. Argh i wish they had a swensons here in Perth. I also went for the Black Eyed Peas concert wit mal at the Indoor Stadium.. was pretty good though our seats were quite far back.. n i kept comparing it to the Sean Paul concert that i went for last April in perth. The Sean Paul concert was the bomb.. we were RIGHT in the front and there werent any seats so everyone was standing n dancing n screamin their lungs out. And we had the most amazing view of the hottie himself. Him and his pelvic thrusts.. *grrrr* ;)

Im seriously craving the fish n chips man.. plus alot of other snackish crap.. Im in this most major peckish mood. Craving chocolate.. and pancakes.. and fried rice.. and this yummy kachang that bhav n I have been cravin since friday. Argh im gettin all depressed juz thinking abt the yummy junk that i cant have right now. Gonna go n finish up my tute.. its back to school.. 4 more wks and then its over.. exam time. My exam timetable SUCKSSSSSSS.. exams r from 5th-18th novemeber.. n my dates are 14,16,17,18.. three days in a row.. im gonna dieee! i had a three day in a row experience in my first semester.. n i almost wanted to kill myself. I hate my time table!!! Why couldnt i have gotten at least two papers in the first wk of exams.. its all crammed into the last wk.. ugh I cant go to Margeaux wit everyone else cuz ill be studying.. but i guess the one good thing is at least i'll have my birthday untouched by the exams. Birthday's on 3/11 (hint hint) so can still afford to spend a day and enjoy b4 i get back to slogging. M sooo not lookin forward to exam time this sem.. its so different not havin Karen around to go down for hot breakfast with.. hot brekkie was kinda the highlight of exam study break n exam wk.. i miss u Karen Chu!!

Weather's still been crappy.. its supposed to be raining almost of whole next wk.. where the hell is Spring man..

**GirLieZ**

Currie Ball
Originally uploaded by royal ragi.

C-Set peepz at Currie Ball

Da C-Set peepz
Originally uploaded by royal ragi.

This is a verse from one of my favourite songs "Baby" by Ashanti.. m totally lovin this song

Baby, I can't see my worth
living here on God's green earth,
you don't know what you've done to me,
I never thought I'd need you desperately,
it's kind of sick how I'm stuck on you
but I don't care cause I'm needing you
and how I feel will remain the same
cause your're my baby
and when the world starts to stress me out
(where i run) it's to you boy withouta doubt
(you're the one) who keeps me sane and I can't complain
you're like a drug you relieve my pain
you're like the blood flowing through my vain,
keeps me alive and feeding my brain
now this is how another human life
could have the power to take over mine
cause you're my baby

DeNiaL.. It ain't just a river in egypt (sorry i stole ya nick Bhav :D)

Currie Ball was a blast! I didn't think i was gonna have fun and was kinda skeptical about the whole night but i am so glad i went. Ok food was kinda crappy cuz i had the vegetarian dish and it was some crumbly bread thingy wit some gravy and ya.. bottom line is it was bad la.. though the tandoori chicken wit rice looked really good. Desert was not too bad.. choice of cheescake or mudcake.. i had a bit of both.. was quite yummy. Things were moving quite slowly until they opened the dance floor.. at first they were playing crappy aussie-fied songs so i wuz jus sittin down lookin all bored.. then finally they started playing r&B.. good r&b.. and everyone at my table was on the dance floor. It's been a long time since i hung out wit da currie peeps so i was really havin a blast.. n not to mention the highlight of my night.. lets just say the eye candy factor was top notch ;)

It was a perfect night more or less.. i wouldn't have changed anything about it.. except maybe i wish i had the courage to juz go up n talk to my cutie.. but i'm a wuss.. i wuz juz really glad he was there. To say that it was a pleasant surprise is a definate understatement.. i really hadn't thought twice about him going.. i had just automatically written off the possibility of him being there. It was so nice seeing him there all dressed up n lookin yummy.. havin fun wit his friends. I didn't think there was anything more he could possibly do to make me like him even more.. i thought i had reached my peak of "payian"-ness.. but i was so wrong.

Unfortunately all good things have to come to an end sooner or later and b4 i knew it .. it was time to leave.. but i was really satisfied with how the night turned out. This was my first n last Currie Ball.. n to think i almost didn't go in the first place. I can't believe this is possibly my last semester in Currie.. i don't even want to think about it.. i'm kinda like in denial. Im trying to block out the fact that i've got only two months more here. I guess ive gotten really attached to this place.. and he's definately part of the reason. Four semesters of seeing him almost everyday.. im addicted. I dont even wanna start thinkin about leaving. I'm not ready to face up to that reality just as yet.

For now.. i'm jus gonna go wit da flow n have my fun and make the most of my remaining months. I'm gonna do my best to make it a semester to remember.. in every sense of the word.

**I'm a PriNcEsS**

wooooo!!!!!!!!!!! I bought my dress!! I finally bought my dressss.. the dress that i've been eyeing since june that cost lyk close to $200.. and it was on sale! And it was the very last piece! Its e most gorgeous dress.. I felt lyk a mermaid fairy princess.. if that makes sense.. im sure there are mermaid fairies rite..? K wateva.. I BOUGHT MY DRESSSSSSSSSSS! :D Now i juz hafta wait for the perfect occasion to show it off at..

K i'm done celebrating..

I had much better luck dress hunting today.. got a nice black dress at a decent price from Miss Shop.. Now im actually looking forward to the Ball tomorrow.. i just wish i didn't have Uni at ten.. stupid make-up tute..
I'm hoping that i have fun at the Ball.. i just wish i had my digicam wit me.. it's possibly my last Ball n i wanna take heaps of photos.

I am so sleepy.. Went to margeaux last nite.. was fun.. ran into a few ppl i haven't seen in a while.. Was trying to be a social butterfly.. it was nice to be in a non anti-social mood for once.. im usually very anti. I'm a grumpy biatch especially when im sleepy or hungry. Like right nowww... i juz wanna sleep but nooo i have to do my stupid tute.. i'm a grumpy "last minute queen" biatch.
Oh but now since i have my dress i'm a grumpy "last minute queen" fairy mermaid princess biatch.
Apart from bein grumpy from lack of sleep.. i also tend to blabber.

Niteee