Monday, January 16, 2006

Hard to be sure
Sometimes I feel so insecure
And love so distant and obscure
Remains the cure
All by myself

Don't wanna be
All by myself

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Shopping is badddddddddd

Been in perth for onlee one n a half wks but it feels lyk its been much longer.. but i don't feel as crappy as i did when i first got here. I still feel abit crappy la but not as much as b4.. Boni's comin in 2 wks so ill juz hafta keep sane till then. Juz had my tutorial presentation yesterdae.. the 25% one.. it was ok i guess.. i'm realli bad at this whole presenting in front of a class thing so was shaking and stammering here n there n completely reading off my notes.. ugh wateva la i realli don't care man its OVERRRR.. now juz hafta study for my mid-sem next thurs. I'm trying to stay in my room and avoid the city cuz everywhere is having a SALEEE and i have absolutely no self-control.. i'm almost broke alreadi. It's bad i know but i'm so bored and there's nothin else to do but shop and watch dvdz.. so right now its 4.15pm, been lazing in bed the whole day.. waitin for the weather to cool down so i can go for a quick jog then i'm gonna head out to video ezy around seven.. thus having successfully avoided the city for one day. I'll just have to keep this up for the next week at least.. maybe i shud get a job.

I just finished watching nine months.. the hugh grant n juliane moore movie.. its pretty old. BUT so sweet.. ugh hugh grant is a cutieeeeee man... and can i pls say that childbirth looks lyk scary shit.

*my mind is blank*

i think its from doing nothing the whole day.. withdrawal symptoms from shopping. I'll juz hafta go cold turkey for a few days.. i know the pain will go away.. *drama queeN*

Think im gonna go take a walk outside for a bit. LATERZZZ.

Sunday, January 08, 2006


Originally uploaded by royal ragi.

how to be angry with this one la..

Please look up my nose!

Originally uploaded by royal ragi.

shobanathan is my idol

ok i know i JUST blogged lyk about 2 mins ago but i was readin shnow's blog and she mentioned something abt how its time we started appreciating what God gave us instead of what he didn't. I tell u ah that girl can seriously write man.. i'm lyk totally inspired by her words. U go shnowmie! I feel quite the stupid now for lyk goin on in my previous blog abt how sad n lonely n self-pitified( ??) Im feeling.. i guess the big picture is that i'm here and in one n a half months i'll be a graduate and have my degree and i have parents n friends that think the world of me n my cute papa who realli doesn't ever say no to me and a bunch of gorgeous girlies that will drop everything to come meet me when i need to whine. I realli do appreciate all these.. i hope God knows that heh.. i realli do leave everything in His hands n know that He knows wats best for me. And now i'm preaching. Heh ok will be off now.. went for a jog 3 hours ago n i still havent showered mwaha. Can i pls stress again how bloody hot it is.. ugh... TORTUREEEEEE

its a new yr

So im stuck in perth doin summer.. parents made me come back.. guess it makes more sense rather than comin back in semester 1 juz to do one unit. But still.. im all alone here in perth and terribly homesick. Feels lyk my holz ended abruptly.. and my year din exactly get off to a great start.. un-resolved issues... there's jus this weird feeling.. lyk this unsettled air around me. I juz wish i was back in spore la.. at least for now.. or i wish some of my frens were here. I know that when uni's abt to start n everyone starts flyin back to Perth then things will go back to bein normal n i'll be less insanely bored out of my brains but right now all i do is sit around and feel sorry for myself.. and i'm not even ashamed abt it. Yes.. i feel sorry for myself.. i think i've been put in a horrible situation.. and being alone is the worst feeling in the world. Oh just shut up n let me wallow for a while.. i'll get over it i know.. i'm just taking my time. The things that used to seem important don't anymore.. it feels lyk the last two years was this big routine.. and now im forced to come out of that routine and start a new one.. i hate change. I want things to go back to normal. I just want to go back to liking paiyan and look forward to seeing him in currie hall and hanging out wit bhav n da rest here n watchin dvdz n stuff.. i want my normal perth life back. I wish december din happen.. i know this is juz a feeling that won't last that long and i'll be back to normal sooner or later (hopefully sooner). Actually scratch that.. i AM glad december happened.. i mean all the crap issues aside.. hanging with my girls was the absolute best.. malibu, kaartsy, sho, jesh (finally!) n bhav(even tho it was juz that one time).. they realli each bring something different to my days and i cant imagine my life without these darlings. So maybe it wasn't such a bad ending to a pretty cool year.. and maybe i jus hafta learn from my other experiences and deal. No point worrying now that im so far away rite.. now that i'm here i shud juz concentrate on my one unit and hope that the days will get better (n cooler.. its burning in Perth man Summer is cruel!!) and that i dun gon insane from the loneliness.. can someone i know pls come to perth! Ugh.. ok.. im gettin sleepy. Been tryna live a normal life n so far so good... been goin to bed at normal times n wakin up b4 noon which is good enuff for me. Its only the first wk of summer sch n alreadi i haf a presentation due tuesdae.. but its cool cuz after that i can more or less slack off. Mid-sem's in 2 wks and final's 3.5 wks after that.. so i guess time mite fly pretty fast.. or it mite feel lyk the day's neva gonna end. I'll just hafta wait n see what 2006 has in store for me. It mite haf gotten off to a rotten start.. but i refuse to let anyone spoil my year.. i don't have any regrets.. and at the end of it all.. after all that's happened.. i still smile when i think of him.. so maybe it's not as bad as it seems.