"im not the guy you think i am" MY ASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. Idiot. Piece of bloody asswipe.

i think its amazing how you still have this effect on me after all these years.

i hate to be all dramafied on my blog but..

i still miss u, im still devastated n i cant believe ure gone.

:(

I was telling kaart over msn abt something significant that happened a few days ago and after finishing my story she had this to say.

Kaart says:
that's awesome
im sure mj's smiling down on both of you

awwww.. this one really knows how to make my day la.

The King of Pop has passed away today. Im beyond depressed. He was supposed to perform at O2 London in July.. and i know alot of people were looking forward to that concert. And i remember feeling so jealous of those who were going.

MJ's performed here in Singapore i think twice before.. i was lucky enough to go for one of his concerts, when i was 13 so that must have been 1996? 13 years ago.. with my cousin Sumi. I remember the two us getting soooooo excited during all his songs and we were the only ones standing on the chairs and dancing like crazy.. and getting yelled and cursed at by the people behind us cuz we were supposedly blocking their view. BUT HELLOOOO.. its a MJ concert la.. who goes to a MJ concert and SITS DOWN. SERIOUSLY SERIOUSLY. Heh.. Michael.. i love you, you are an amazing singer,performer,icon,star.. i didn't care what was being said about you. I love you and your music and you are timeless. I know i am gonna be listening to your songs forever.. i know i'm gonna be 35 and sharing your music with my kids.. I was so looking forward to that.. i still will of course but i definitly didnt think you wouldn't be around at that point.

At the risk of sounding cheesy and/or cliche.. i really didnt feel like coming to work today.. and now i wish i hadnt.. i just feel like crawling into a hole for a few days. Your death was so sudden..R.I.P Michael.. i love u long time.

To those who have sent me smses and msgs on FB.. thank you for caring.. and thank you for trying to make me feel better.

To the boy - its hard not to think of you especially on this day. I hope you're doing better than i am. P.S. - ure the first person i thought abt too, when i heard the news.

4:54pmSumi
exactly

hahahahaha

4:54pmRagi
i also need a deflower-er

4:55pmSumi
We will find you one!

okie i need to pee..brb

4:56pmSumi is offline.


ANTI-CLIMAX!!!!!
hahahah

I took the circle line today. FINALLY. Construction has been goin since 2004.. and finally after 6 years i was able to see the light at the end of the tunnel. No pun intended :) The constructions were a pain in the ass! First they boarded up the walkways which kinda made the area from my block to the busstop quite dodgy.. then the created a make-shift bus stop which was like more or less at the other end of the estate. Lets not even get started on all the road diversions. Now finally my bus stop is back to the initial spot, and the MRT station is just behind my block! Its quite convenient i have to say. Now i just have to wait for the Promenade station to open so i can take the circle line to work.. the Promenade station is like 2 mins from millenia walk! Door to door service on a whole new level. :)

i dun feel like playing ur games anymore. That's right, now bugger off.
Why has this backache come back to haunt me.. i look like the freakin hunchback of notre dame.. n i reek of tiger balm. Why ah.. is age catchin up on me.. is it cuz i take late nite showers.. did i strain some muscle while i was being so productive at work. HURTS LIKE A BIATCH. Can i take half day.. shall i? Boo.

Now you think that i
Will be something on the side
But you got to understand
That I need a man
Who can take my hand yes I do

I dont know what this is
But you got me good
Just like you knew you would

I dont know what you do
But you do it well
I’m under your spell
You got me begging you for mercy
Why wont you release me
You got me begging you for mercy
Why wont you release me
I said you’d better release yeah yeah yeah

I've had this article with me for a while but i completely forgot about it until i watched Night At The Museum 2. It was written by Mindy Kaling, the Indian girl from "The Office" and she had a tiny role in NATM2 n that kinda jolted my memory. Growing old :) ENJOY!

"Here's a true story about me: I keep a plastic bottle of water near my bed at night so I can stay hydrated. Hydration is the key to great skin and being thin and lots of life's other happinesses, according to the many, many women's health magazines I subscribe to.

So, one night, I drank a big gulp of water from my water bottle, turned off the light, and went to sleep, very pleased with myself.

In the middle of the night, I heard a gunshot and immediately peed my pants. Well, to be accurate, I peed my pajamas. For those of you who haven't had the experience of peeing yourself, it's not just for children and the elderly. It can happen to anyone who is terrified and thinks that they will be murdered shortly.

Well, it wasn't a gunshot. It was an indentation in my plastic water bottle un-indenting itself, loudly. It made a loud, plastic-y crack,, which I mistook for a gunshot. When I realized this, I felt relief ... then a deep foolishness.

Living alone is hard.

Don't get me wrong, living alone can be wonderful. I listen to the same Jordin Sparks song on repeat and no one tells me how irritating that is. I don't have to wear deodorant. I can wear granny underpants, my hair can be stringy, and I can eat directly from containers. I have autonomy. I'm like a Lost Boy from Peter Pan.

Since I have to be in makeup at 6 a.m. every morning for work, having no one see me when I get home is an amazing freedom. Also, by not having a roommate, I avoid friendship-ending arguments about house messiness (to be accurate, about how I am largely responsible for the house messiness).

But since I'm a chatty, tactile person, it can also get incredibly lonely.

When my New York–based boyfriend, Ben, is in town, this solves a lot of loneliness problems. But not danger problems. Ben is great, but he looks like a thinner version of Beck (himself a pretty skinny dude), so he's not a huge insurance policy against prowlers. Since I moved into my house, I've had some massive fraidy-cat moments almost daily — people knocking on my door to welcome me to the neighborhood, children trying to sell me magazines or cookies or get me to sign something.

So I've had to become a little more brave. Mostly I pretend I'm Jodie Foster in Panic Room.

Or Jodie Foster in any movie. Jodie Foster is always single-handedly fending off baddies. I also learned two key self-defense moves, about which I'm not going to go into detail lest people learn my secrets (hint: One involves groin damage, the other, arm-socket damage). Last, I bought a deafening alarm for my key chain, which I've set off when riffling through my purse, and it scares the living crap out of me, so I'm confident it will work in a time of duress.

As frightening as it can be, I treasure my time alone. Why? I can be as self-interested as I please. I'm 29, and as I feel myself drifting toward marriage and kids, I'll look back on this time as a delicious, tiny window where I got to do whatever I wanted. Including, as it turns out, peeing my pajamas in terror."

I'm at my prime, i'm basking in all my singledom glory. While we're on the topic of being able to do whatever i want.. i feel like piercing my tongue again!!! Shall ponder away.

I woke up abit earlier for work today.. wanted to get an earlyish start so i woke up like half an hour earlier than usual. I was getting ready for work and watching the ellen show at the same time and i was almost done and ready to leave in abt 5 mins when Ellen says, "Coming up after the break and here to sing for us is .. Matt Giraud" HELLLLLOOOOO!! I was like shrieking away happily in my room.. MATT G!!! So OBVIOUSLY i had to stay to watch the performance.. he sang "Lets Get It On" by Marvin Gaye.. one of the songs he performed on idol. It was damn bloody nice.. flawless.. he's perfect i tell ya. I guess my early start plan didn't quite work out but it was totally worth it! Thanks Ellen for making my day :D

On our first day in phuket, after taking a dip in our pool and grocery shopping the four of us came back to our villa all buggered out. Sho and i passed out on the couch within 5 mins heh.. i kinda assumed that mal n shawn wud do the same but noooooo malibu had other plans. Ever since she heard there was a place near our villa where we could go to for Horseback Riding she was talking about it nonstop pretty much haha. Although i was damn tired from the flight n lack of sleep etc i was determined to make the most of my trip so i decided to join the two. Sho the brave one stayed behind to catch up on beauty sleep. I changed into more appropriate Horseback riding gear (apparently u have to wear longish pants/jeans, and i was wearing a sarong haha) and we called for the nice obliging shuttlebus driverboy to drive us there. I've never been horseback riding and i was a little nervous mostly cuz this shola was goin on abt how that christopher reeves (or howeva u spell his name) Superman fella got thrown of his horse and was paralyzed blah blah.. but im glad to report that nothing of sorts happened :)

I cant remember how much we paid.. but it was pretty reasonable according to mal, our horseback riding expert. It was for an hour and we took this jungle trail, we had two guides accompanying us on foot and they gave us a crash course in horseback riding 101 like how to tug on the reins to instruct the horse to go left or right and stuff. The guide asked me if i wanted the horse to go faster at one point and i thought why not.. so off we went.. it was a little scary la cuz it was kinda bumpy and i was a bit scared that i'd fall off but i just clung on tight and enjoyed the ride. Got abit of the local phuket scene.. saw how the locals lived.. saw a bunch of kids playing in the fields.. I was really glad to have pushed my fatigue to one corner of my brain and joined the two.. horseback riding was heaps of fun! Although the next day shawn and i woke up to very painful bums hahah.. not mal though, our seasoned rider. But it was still worth it :)

Like i mentioned earlier, i've been reconnecting with my old school songs. The latest to the edition are my Aerosmith songs. I LOVE AEROSMITH!!!! Adam triggered it off after singing "Crying" a couple of weeks ago on idol.. my favs would be "hole in my soul" , "Crazy", "Pink" and "Crying" of course. Sigh.. u know i really cant go on enough about this season's idol. It was so good.. i'm so sad its over.. i think im too emotional for my own good. Lately everything's been setting of my tear ducts. The last 3 books i read had me in sniffles.. when matt n allison got voted off i was tearing away.. i dunno wat is wrong with me!! Its so embarrassing.

I watched "night at the museum 2" with kaart n fi last nite.. it was quite a feel good movie. Not as nice as the first one but still very funny.. i love Kahman Rah or however u spell his name.. omg he really was the highlight of the show laaaaa. Especially the darth vader bit "There's too much going on here.. u're evil.. u're asthmatic.." HAHAHA i laughed so hard i think i scared the people around me. Kaart and I did supper at the prata shop after that.. its been ages since we did that.. and there were a couple of cuties at the prata shop too so it was a pretty good ending to my night :)

Back to work tmw. Blehhhh

Perfer et obdura: dolor hic tibi proderit olim - Be patient and tough: someday this pain will be useful to you.

I'd lost it for idol after Matt and Allison were voted off but i was kinda hoping Danny and Adam would be the final two. Instead it was Adam and Kris. KRIS. And then i was hoping Adam would win. Instead it was Kris. KRIS. I dont get it.. America will you realllyyyy buy his album.. his voice is nice but its not GREAT. I hope Matt comes out with an album quick.. oohh i hope he comes to sg for a tourrrr ;D
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I am victim of my time
A product of the age
You alone are my obsession
You were the one I left behind
You’ve been heavy on my mind
It’s been a lonely road I’ve traveled

And so I walk to try to get away
Knowing that someday I will finally have to face
The fear that will come from knowing that
The one thing I had left was you
And now you’re gone

also applies to PMS!

ive been listening to all my old school songs.. i dont know they just dont make em like they used to. Like cranberries.. and jewel.. unchained melody.. when's the last time you heard a song that made you want to fall in love. Even movies.. sound of music! My all time favourite. Anyways this is one of my favourite songs and im listening to it now, used to listen to it on repeat when i was leaving Perth cuz i was oh so heartbroken, u know why *rolls eyes* haha

Song: When You're Gone
Artist: Cranberries
Hold on to love, that is what I do,
Now that I've found you.
And from above, everything's stinking,
They're not around you.
And in the night, I could be helpless.
I could be lonely, sleeping without you.
And in the day, everything's complex.
There's nothing simple, when I'm not around you


But, I miss you when your gone,
That is what I do, ba-baby.
And its going to carry on,
That is what I knew, hey baby.


Hold on to my hands, I feel like sinking,
Sinking without you.
And to my mind, everythings stinking, stinking without you.


And in the night I could be helpless.
I could be lonely, sleeping without you.
And in the day, everything's complex.
There's nothing simple, when I'm not around you.


And I miss you when your gone,
That is what I do, ba-baby.
And its going to carry on,
That is what I knew, hey baby.

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i love her voice la.. its so haunting.

This is long overdue so think i shall get down to it. In January the awesome foursome decided to vacay in Phuket.. actually it was supp to be just me n the coupling but after some persuasion and financial planning shola decided she could join us as well. PERFECT! We left on thursday 8th Jan and came back on Sunday 11th.
Although this trip was a long time in the making everything was finalised only on 31st of December, thats when we booked our tickets and accomodation. When i say everything i mean evertyhing for me shawn n mal, sho only confirmed her attendance literally the day b4 the trip im not kidding. I managed to find this bloody gorgeous villa, 2 bedrooms with our own private pool for $270 per night! We booked the 2 bedroom one even b4 we knew sho was coming so when she finally did finalise things we didnt have to change anything. It was nice how everything kinda fell into place.

We reached Phuket at 11am on Thursday. Before the trip i did some research on nice places to see and came across Phi Phi Island. It looked damn bloody gorgeous from the pictures and i was so super stoked to go there. At the airport itself there were a couple of tour groups selling tours to Phi Phi so i obviously jumped at the chance and managed to convince the rest to get on board. Our first ten mins in Phuket and we each had already spent 1200 bhat (arnd $50 sing) thanks to me :) Then we made our way to our pre-arranged transport to the villa. It was abit of a drive.. around half hour.. i was abit stressed about how the villa would actually look. It looked really nice in pictures but, u know the wonders of photoshop. I must say we werent disappointed.. and thats an understatment. As we walked into the villa we were all like "oh.my.god." The place is seriously GORGEOUS. Just like in the pictures. AND OUR OWN POOL!!!! Needless to say it didnt take us long to strip down to our swimwear and jump in. damnnnn bloody shiok. We got some lunch from room service, went grocery shopping and got a whole lotta junk, came back and crashed for awhile, went Horseback Riding, came back to the villa, got changed,then went for dinner at this pretty little italian place down the road. The food was absolutely amazing! Best bruschetta ive ever eaten in my entire life. We had two servings of bruschetta, a main each, a glass of wine each and complimentary alcohol shots for like $15 per person? Why are we not living in phuket!?! Sho didnt join us cuz she was a lil under the weather so when we got back i filled her in on the happenings and the two of us sat by the pool and just bitched and gossiped for an hour then decided to call it a night. I had slept maybe 7 hours in the last two days so i was quite proud that i actually had energy to do all those things on Day 1 and happy that some much needed sleep was on the way. I think i slept off once my head hit the pillow :)

DAY TWO!

Woke up at 9 for brekkie. The staff at the villa came to our villa to personally cook us breakfast! Can u believe that. We had eggs,toast and sausages. After a few nibbles we decided to go for another swim.. i think we spent like half our holiday in that pool. At around 12pm we decided to explore the touristy areas like Patong beach and after quite a bit of walking we managed to find a tuktuk to take us. Patong is about 20mins from where we were and i must say the tuktuk rides arent for those who are easily prone to motion sickness. The bumpiness of the road coupled with the seating postion is one disastrous formula for some projectile. When we got to Patong beach the first thing we saw were jet skis.. so exciting!! We did some jet skiing, beers on the beach, massage on the beach, sho had a go at parasailing (she was a bit drunk too btw) and decided to call it a very productive day at 6p.m. Tuktuk-ed back to the villa and since we hadnt had lunch (too caught up in all the fun n we forgot to eat) we were all famished. Usually the villa provides a shuttle bus for guests who want to explore the surroundings but the driver had already gone home so we were left to find our own means of transport. Sho wasnt planning on joining us so mal shawn and i decided to walk out to the main road and explore the restaurants nearby. Unfortunately.. the villa was located deep inside some dark ulu area, it was 7ish and the skies were dark plus no street lights so you can imagine how ulu this place is.. and maybe 5 mins into our walk out, a stray dog started barking abit suspiciously at us. That was quite a scary moment, shawn was like, "ok slowly turn around and start walking back, slowly, dont run". Bloody hell i was shaking like crazy.. luckily the dog didnt attack us or anything but that incident ruled out the option of walking to civilisation. So there we were in a strange land with no means of getting out, no idea what number to call for a cab, reception wasnt picking up our calls either so we couldnt ask them for help.. was a liitle frustrating. Finally shawn the genius googled this restaurant (Rum Jungle) we saw earlier that day, got their number from the internet, called them, explained our situation and said we'd like to have dinner there but didnt have any means of transport and managed to get one of the staff to come pick us up! Brilliant la Shawn Dass. And sho decided she was up for joining us.. so commeneced the first awesome fourseome dinner in phuket. Food at rum jungle was pretty decent too.. at least i liked it. We got a tuktuk to send us back to our villa.. which really is like a 7 min walk from the restaurant but we were all too scared to walk after the earlier incident. Day 2.. pretty eventful.. im really loving phuket.

Day 3 - PHI PHI ISLAND DAY!!! I woke up literally jumping out of bed in excitment.. Phi Phi Island is where some scenes from the movie "The Beach" was shot. We got our packed breakfasts ( strawberry yoghurt, a bun and some fruit nothing impressive actually) and our transport came to get us at 7am. We got to the pier at 8 and boarded the ferry.. the journey to Phi Phi was quite long.. 2 hours if im not wrong. After an hour and a half we switched to a smaller ferry.. and went open sea snorkelling!! it was sooooooo fun.. Initially it was abit scary cuz we were really in the middle of the sea but we had our life jackets on and also the snorkelling masks werent of very good quality i think and salt water kept goin into my mouth which was really gross.. oh and not forgetting mal and i like action hero only decided to get flippers.. and once we were in the water we were like how the heckkkkk do u swim with these on hahaha it was hilarious. I got rid of mine after 5 mins but mal decided to keep hers on cuz of her "there's something lurking in the water" phobia haha :) It was the best experience ever.. using the snorkelling masks i put my head underwater and saw all the pretty tiny little fish and the corals.. and saw how far down the sea actually goes... it goes realllllyyyyy deep deep down. We were in the middle of the deep blue sea guys! Beat that. After that we finally got to Phi Phi, had some lunch (part of the package but really really quite crappy) then had our free and easy time.

Phi Phi beach.. oh my god i want to live there. Im not kidding.. i really want to spend the rest of my life there! ITS BEYOND GORGEOUS. I was practically running to the beach.. the rest were walking behind.. and then they decide they wanted to go shopping! I was like "HEH??" hahah its ok i was quite happy walking around on my own.. the water is a gorgeous shade of blue-green and crystal clear so you can see the tiny fishes swimming and everything.. and its shallow for miles!! I was in the water walking and walking for like 15 minutes.. and the highest the water level got was up to my knees.. ahhh just talking about it now is making me miss that place like majorly. Its really the most beautiful place ive been to. Actually the display picture on my blog, that's Phi Phi! LOVES IT! Unfortunately as badly as i wanted to set up camp there, we had to leave so we made our way back to our ferry for the two hour trip back to phuket.

Once back in our villas we decided to be proactive about dinner plans so that we wouldnt be stranded like the night before and got the reception to book us a cab. The guy that came to pick us up, was more like a car service guy.. like one of those chauffered transports.. and he was cute! Haha ;) He recommended this restaurant that was at one of the nearby hotels, Le Meridien, so we decided to go along with that. And we didnt regret it one bit. Its practically a 5 star restaurant, perched on a cliff, overlooking the sea. I was a lil bit paranoid about the whole tsunami thing but i didnt let that get to me. Oh and the most annoying part is my stupid camera died! I forgot to charge the battery! And shawn and sho didnt bring their cameras cuz they were relying on mine! Dammit la. It was such a gorgeous restaurant.. i was using my phone like old school times.. better than nothing i suppose. We feasted like pigs! Got tom yum soup, green curry, pineapple rice,phad thai, thai fish cakes, spring rolls and dessert! We paid $50 each which i still think is pretty darn worth it for the ambience,view, quality and quantity of food. Happy and full we waited for our cute transport guy to come get us, went back to our villa and decided to start packing since sadly, we were leaving the next morning :( Of course we had to use our beloved pool one last time.. was freezing but wat the heck haha. Sho and i did our routine night time gossip session till around 1 or 2 in the morning then decided to call it a night.

Day 4 - LEAVING PHUKET! :( what can i say.. we woke up.. all sad to leave.. got our unimpressive packed brekkies and said goodbye to the gorgeous villa. Our flight was at 9 or 10 in the morning so straight to the airport it was. Decided to ditch our packed breakfasts and pig out at the burger king in the airport instead. I dunno about the rest but i was in some major grumpy mood that my holiday had come to an end n very soon my life would be back to normal.. i was seriously in a foul mood the whole of sunday. We got back to Singapore before noon.. and the end. For now. I cant wait to go back! Soon hopefully.

P.S i had shit loads of work when i got back on Monday and had major withdrawal symptoms from phuket and my roomies. If only i was a tai tai. If only i cud just pack up and ship of to some other country! This was 4 mths ago.. guys i think its time for another trip, what say you? :D

the more i know.. the more i like. This is so damn bloody inconvenient. I do believe these things are mind over matter.. so it's just me being silly. But.. b.l.e.h.

I'm not sure why...

- that song reminds me of you
- i've been staring at that picture of us too many times in the last week
- i like u when i don't even know u
- i feel so alone when my friends are probably just a phone call away
- i know im meant for greater things
- im not living somewhere else
- i feel like absolute crap today
- i dont blog more often
- i love matt g so many much
- he got the lowest number of votes in american idol this wk even though he rocked the performance
- i still love 3T
- i'm still an eternal optimist
- period.

David Cook - Loves him and his voice and this song!


You say you gotta go and find yourself
You say that you´re becoming someone else
Don´t recognize the face in the mirror
Looking back at you

You say you´re leavin
As you look away
I know theres really nothin left to say
Just know i´m here
Whenever you need me
I´ll wait for you

So i´ll let you go
I´ll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me

Take your time i wont go anywhere
Picture you with the wind in your hair
I´ll keep your things right where you left them
I´ll be here for you

Oh and i´ll let you go
I´ll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me

And i hope you find everything that you need
I´ll be right here waiting to see
You find you come back to me

I can´t get close if your not there
I can´t get inside if theres no soul to bear
I can´t fix you i can´t save you
Its something you have to do

So i´ll let you go
I´ll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me
Come back to me
So i´ll let you go
I´ll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me

And i hope you find everything that you need
I´ll be right here waiting to see
You find you come back to me

When you find you come back to me
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Im quite an undoh.. all along i thought he was singing "when you find June" and now only i realised it's "when you find YOU" hahah ooppss :)

Currently listening to : Turn your lights down low

Turn your lights down low
Never ever try to resist, oh no
Oh let your love come shining in
Into our lives again
Saying: ooh, I love you
And I want you to know right now
Ooh I love you
And I want you to know right now
That I
That I
I wanna give you some love
I wanna give you some good, good loving
Oh I, oh I, oh I
I wanna give you some good, good loving

u did it again. More than anything i'm angry with myself.. for letting you get to me. I know i'm better than that.. i promised 2009 would be different and i'm bent on keeping it that way.

its been a rollercoaster of a week.. started off really hating the haircut and then after switching it up started to like it alot more.. got negative reviews.. and positive ones.. i mean i knew that people would be a little shocked that i chopped off all my hair but.. its amazing how some people can be so damn insensitive and tactless and just plain STUPID. I mean.. if you tell me my hair is not nice what am i suppossed to do.. its not a bloody outfit that i can go home and change right.. i mean if ure really so concerned then tell me like in a couple of months when my hair has grown and im in the safe zone la.. isn't that common sense.. tell me now for what. I kinda figured the girls would like it and the guys wouldnt.. but its something i wanted to do and i like it so really please don't come and volunteer information about how you think the cut doesnt suit me or that i look better with my previous haircut cause really.. I DIDN"T ASK FOR YOUR BLOODY OPINION. Why are people so kaypohhhh... and clueless.. do you think ure doing me a favour?? Can i please do you one and buy you a brain maybe??

That applies to people who i don't even know and din even ask for their opinions and just happily came and kaypoh-ly gave their worthless comments. To people that i DID ask what they thought... i believe the keyword is TACT. I think you can be honest yet tactful.. i dont think those two words are mutually exclusive no?

Sentence of the year : "Have you looked at yourself in the mirror?"
Isnt that classic!!!!

Hahah ok Mal so i DID blog about it.. i mean how could i not after we were so clearly given a sign that i should haha *winkwink*

Today was steph's surprise party for her 21st bday.. babygirl's all grown up! Happy Birthday darling.. was nice seeing the girls after so long.. i hate that i get to see everyone together like this only on Birthdays. The party was in the ballroom at Excelsior hotel.. i was quite happily stuffing my face with the yummy food. The after party was at Attica but i was missing my little gremlin ossie so Sho and I went to boat quay to meet her and we went to... Celebrities! Haha yea my first time there.. was ok la.. u know me and clubbing.. and also i'm secretly 55 years old so i can't really stay out after 1 a.m without yawning every 5 minutes. Damn unglam la.. sho and i ended up leavin celebs at 4.15.. i got home at around 4.45.. and now its almost 5.45.. and i shud go sleep. NITE!

P.S.. i feel alot better after my rant.. and i guess im not really angry with the ones that gave me the unwarranted opinions.. i mean i really think boys are just generally very clueless..the accquaintances and other random people that i'm not close to i can forgive. But one thing i really wont forgive is insensitivity from someone who is suppossed to calm your insecurities.

 

america are you kidding me. How can Matt be in the bottom freaking two laaaaa...

Sigh malibu.. i decided not to blog about "IT". hahah think its a waste of my time and energy no? Plus i feel alot better after our bitching session earlier so i think its all good now. Haters can keep on hating.

Ugh another boring friday night.. Mal just came over to thanni at my place b4 she headed out to Gotham.. and since i have work tmw i obviously cant join in the clubbing fun. So saddddd.. havent clubbed with her in so long and today would have been quite fun :( Ah well.. ive mysteriously contracted the flu so i guess its best i stay at home anyways.

Is everyone supporting Earth hour later today.. 8.30 to 9.30 p.m.. just for an hour guys so no excuses. I hear some of the hotels in Singapore are doing their part to get everyone involved i.e Happy hour during Earth hour.. candle-lit dinners etc.. Good on ya :)

lets get it onnnnnnnnn

oh matt.. wat a tease u are. Yes i'm 16 again.. im a full-fledged Matt Groupie!

On a less stalkerish note.. i cut my hair again! ha yeappp.. it was abit of a flop at first and i was reallyyyyyyy sad when i stepped out of the salon. Miserable to be exact.. i cried. Heh yea it was really quite a disaster.. and i couldnt even try to mess around with it cuz i had just rebonded my hair(yes im a sellout!) so couldnt touch it.. but on Monday night after an embear day at work(don't know if i was bein paranoid but cud have sworn ppl were bitchin abt my do) i came home determined to revamp.. and with some wax and shifting my parting from the left to the right.. i actually kinda like it now! And been getting some not so bad reviews.. so yea guess it's cool now.. still not totally what i wanted but hey at least i don't hate it. Yay :)

Matt is the bomb diggity in the diggydiggybombomb pantsssssssssssssssss

Something very interesting/weird happened to me today.. it was around 11a.m and i was on my way to work, and i looked up at the sky.. and i saw the moon! Is that normal??

YAYYYYYYY for Matt!!!!! And for Anoop Dawg! And for Jorge!!!!!

Today's episode of Idol was like THE nicest! The last part where Simon announces they'll be making it a Top 13 and that Anoop was in was so sweet rightttttt.. sigh.

Matt Giraud's in the wildcard round!!!! Gotta bring it baby!

M watching Gridiron Gang on cable now.. that Dwayne Johnson is a beautiful man.

im reallyyyyy hoping Matt Giraud gets in during the wildcard round.. helloooo doesnt anyone remember Georgia!?!? i literally melted.

how amusing.. i just saw an ad for a tutor, for JC1 econs, requirement - Econs degree. Ha. I have one of those.. sadly it is quite like a white elephant.. mostly because i am quite clueless in that whole department and still have no idea how i managed to get my bachelor's degree in Economics.. of course the fact that i barely passed every module isn't something to shout about. $400 a month for once a week lessons... that's good money man. Should i? What are the chances the student's as clueless as i am.. i could probably get away with my "knowledge" then. Sigh ok.. i'm not gonna wreck some smarty pants JC kid's life for a measly four hundred bucks.

i like my new hair.. but i think i need to straighten it again.. cuz the back part keeps curling up like a chicken backside. I need to find out how to blowdry nice nice like how the salon did for me.. i reallllyyy loved it the first two days after it was salonfied then last night i washed and blowdried it myself and i still like it but its just the back bit that's annoying.. and its not as smooth and healthy looking. How to get that salon look leh.... anyways my hair is so short so if i go to the hairdresser's just to wash and blowdry i'm sure it'll be like.. less than 15bucks? Maybe i can do tt once a week.. hmm. Washing my hair yesterday was the shiokest la.. i took ONE MINUTE to shampoo AND condition my hair.. how awesome is thatttttttt. I actually would like to go shorter at the back.. have it look more concave... i think i'm gonna keep this look for a month and then i'll get that cut. So eggcitinggg :)

the little one is in hospital.. some bacteria thing in his intestines i think.. Kaart and i went to visit him today at Gleneagles. He was still quite cheerful and all despite being on drips.. i'm sure that thing poking thru his hand can't be the nicest feeling in the world, but he's a trooper. Gleneagles is right next to botanical gardens so Kaart and i decided to be romantic and spontaneous and explore the gardens after leaving the hospital. Botancial gardens is sooo pretty man, i havent been there in like close to twenty years i swear! I really wanna go back for a picnic.. think it would be lovely on a nice sunny wkend afternoon with good friends and yummy food. The two of us were being very touristy and trying to take pictures of ourselves with the nice backdrops.. was quite fun la. It was a good day. :)

Yesterday was stock take.. i ended at 10ish then went to UE square to meet sho and some of her friends. Drinking at UE square before clubbing seems to be the tradition so there was some socializing and then we headed down to Obar. The last time i went there was last year for cheryl's birthday and i hadn't gone back since because i'm not a huge fan of that place.. but i've been hearing better reviews lately so decided to give it another shot. Actually i was having alot of fun at first and thought maybe i was abit unfair in writing it off .. but.. i dunno why la i think it's cuz i have a very low tolerance level and i get irritated very fast by the smallest things so after a while i was back to being anti O bar (through no fault of its own i'm sure).. i don't think i'll go back unless all of my favourite people are going.. or if its some really important person's birthday.

I miss liking clubbing. I mean.. my clubbing days were REALLY fun.. it's just not the same anymore.. think i need to find a new club that's got an older fun crowd. O bar was swarming with young farts. But.. i also like my chillout nights at BQ or dempsey..ugh. I'm like in this in-between stage.. i feel like giving clubbing another chance butttt it also seems quite futile. Actually.. this shouldn't be the biggest of my worries right now right.. yea. Shouldnt sweat the petty stuff.. and shouldn't pet the sweaty stuff. Heeee :)

i cutted my hairrrrrrrr!! I quite loves it. :)

auto-roaming is a bitchhhh! Just got my handphone bill and my roaming calls for the 3 nights i was in Phuket came up to 60 bucks! For like ten minutes! And now that i've been footing all my mobile bills with my own hard-earned cash i'm really feeling the pinch la. i'm thinking of cutting my hair tomorrowwww.. excited and nervous.. please love me still even if i look like a freak! bye bye long hairrrrr *sniffsss*

gong xi fa caiiiiiiiiii! The break was good.. slept alot.. ate alot.. went to Jesh's housewarming on Sunday..her house is G-O-R-G-E-O-U-S.. and has its own pool! Sigh. We had a great round of charades and hung out for abit b4 heading back to sho's for another fabulous round of taiti and "SNAP!"!! haha i love snap.. its so simple and uncomplicated.. and fun! On Monday i went to c triston for abit with kaart and aartsy then met mal and the rest to go gotham. Gotham again was disappointing.. lacking in something.. crowd? Yea i think it wasn't crowded enough.. the music's good though and i actually take back what i said about the band. They're actually pretty good although the sound system was kinda loud and that made it abit annoying to have to sit through. The saving grace was our own private area with the pool table that the rest discovered so we hung out there for most of the night.. left around 3ish with mal and sho and we decided to go for Prata.. after so long! Wow i cant remember the last time we had an after-clubbing prata date.. was definitely my favourite part of the night :)

Back to work today.. as usual i have a huge pile of work stacked up.. shall try to work my way through it over the next couple of days.. hopefully i finish everything by stock take this saturday so i can clear up my desk. Things are getting a leeetle too cluttered at my work station.. ah well it's no big secret that i'm not the most organised person around. Aunty nits is coming tmwwwww!!! Hopefully i get to see her though, she's coming at some un-godly hour like 3a.m. and wants to catch a catnap first so yea hopefully we get to do lunch or something.

........."It's for the best".. that's what ive been repeating like a broken record to everyone.. that and "It just wasn't working out" or "we were just too different". Can't wait for the months to pass so i can stop explaining to everyone what happened.. But.. also.. it's kinda liberating to talk about it sometimes.. i don't know. Soon it'll be old news. And that life we once shared would seem so distant.. and this nagging feeling in the back of my head will go away. Ah well..
I'm craving champagneeeeee.. maybe i'll get to do something fun this wkend ;) Singledom beckons!!!!

just got back from my jog.. decided to go for an early one today since i'm supposed to be hanging out with the rest later and i ate like such a peeg yesterday.. woke up feeling like crap man. The weather was so nice.. i don't usually jog in the afternoons cause of the sun but it wasn't burning today and there was a really nice breeze, it rained lightly for like 5 minutes then stopped.. was quite pleasant weather.

Watchin american idol now.. its so entertaining la.. there was this big dude who sang a michael jackson song and did some MJ "moves".. was bloody funny. Aahhh needs to go batheee.. laterzzzzz

yaaaaaaaaaaawwwnnnnnnnnn

got back from my date with sho a while ago.. was funnest. I met her n joss-wahhh in town for dinner first.. we went to lido cuz got so much variety u know :) i had my subway as usual.. i love subway la.. sho can't get over e fact tt i get e veggie delite.. but its really so good and i dun even lyk veggies usually. She n the josswah were asking me all these hypothetical situation questions.. was damn funny la.. maybe not entirely suitable for dinner-time conversation but very entertaining nonetheless. :)I went window shopping while waiting for them to get to town and i was so tempted to buy a pair of chanel shades.. which i obv cant afford haha. Sigh i'm giving myself till April this year.. i am getting a pair by then. Sho n i went window shopping and saw some gorgeous bags in the chanel botique.. sigh.. y the heck are they lyk out of this world expensive. We decided to drown our sorrows with ice-cream so headed over to Swensons.. i'll neva tire of their sundae & fries la. Just good old school stuff. It was so nice doing a saturday night thing with Sho.. i can't remember the last time we did this. Just suddenly though of phuket.. and how she and I would chill on the deck chairs by the pool b4 sleeping and we'd just talk and goss lyk a bunch of sixteen year-olds.. that stuff never gets old la.

Should go sleep soon.. still cant believe i finished work at 4.45..

its almost 4pm on a saturday afternoon and i'm still stuck at work.

NOT HAPPY. Good thing its a longish wkend. But still.. im not happy.

just wanted to claim ownership rights for my main display pic.. don't go trying to steal it! Isnt it gorgeous though.. sigh.. was taken at my new love - Phi Phi Island which is off phuket.

M so bloody sleepy.. i didn't finish as late as i thought i would which is always a good thing. Ended around 8ish.. had yummy fish bites at Outback for dinner.. omg the fish bites are really damn yummy la.. I recommend to everyone! Then thought of going down to lil india cuz mal & all were there but she was totally avoiding my calls!! haha.. so ended up just comin home instead. I should go sleep but i'm kinda hooked onto top model so gonna stay up to watch tt first.. quite the tv junkie i am. :)

Its gonna be flydayyyyyy.. not as exciting for me cuz i got work on saturdays but there's still some level of excitement. I met Bon & Gehe for lunch a couple of days ago.. its been 5 million years since the three of us hung out together.. we were having yummy drink/dessert @ gloria jeans.. glad to see we have progressed from the lido days haha. It was lyk pretty routine.. we'd go to lido and get lasagna from pizza hut and somemore unhealthy crap from the likes of LJS and just bum our lives away.. ahhhh the joys of being 16. Was so nice catching up with them.. i really need to get my ass to Perth soon la it's been too long.. and i kinda cornered bon into inviting me to stay with her haha.. her place is right smack in the city!!! Paradise for me la.. just need to work out leave issues and i shud be off. If only it was forever.. why is everywhere else more exciting than singapore.. with Perth its the gorgeous people and shopping and food.. and with phuket its the bloody awesome sun,sand & the sea.. and phi phi island.. oh phi phi island. U and I are one. My dream job would be one where i rotate btwn Perth and Phi Phi.. think the only way to achieve that is to set up my own business with branches in both places :) ha.

Like i told him yesterday.. everyday is 5 steps forward and 3 steps back.. but at least at e end of the day its still a lil bit of progress.. day by day.. baby steps. Me hates the low-points.. need more distractions. Hopefully i have many eggciting (lovin sho's new word) things to do durin the long wkend.. though i have very limited funds. I so badly want to run away somewhere.. KL? saint cinnamon would be heaven-sent right now. Pun not intended. :)

ughh.. can't wait for this week to end. Reallyyy looking forward to the CNY break.. need to catch up on my sleep. The boss is coming down tmw for her monthly visit.. she was supp to come on friday so i was nicely taking my time to do my work and then at lyk 5ish she tells me she's coming tmw instead. Ha.. i guess its a good thing i like her.. she's really nice so i'm not dreading her visit or anything.. but its just gonna be a mad rush tmw trying to finish up everything for her to check. Oh well. .serves me right for being a slacker i guess.

Finally bought my proactiv facial wash!! Have been using proactiv ever since i got some weird pimple breakout 4 years ago and i thought it was a really good product.. kinda kept the pimples at bay.. then in aug/september i started buying the proactiv kit from Mustafa instead of Watsons cuz it was $10 cheaper (10 bucks is a big deal when ure broke ok!).. and i started getting pimples again.. don't know if its just a coincidence.. then the facial wash ran out and for the last 3-4 weeks ive been using this OXY facial wash which i thought we be good since it was OXY.. but my complexion has gotten reallyyyy worse.. sigh. i dunno.. am i still supposed to be having pimple problems..I thought i was done with this hormonal thing after i turned 21.. Don't tell me i'm gonna be battling with my skin till im wrinkly. I'm just hoping the proactiv works its wonders again.. i miss having normal skin :(

I've been having this urge to cut my hair.. not lyk boy-short but maybe around shoulder length.. or a lil bit shorter? I don't know.. does it sound lyk some post-breakup syndrome? I dont think it is though.. i've been toying with the idea for quite a while now.. im just soooo sick of my hair.. i love the curls n all but i just want a new look. Think i need to do more research and find a tried & tested fabulous hairdresser b4 i take the big leap.

Ok am off to be a couch potato now.. gonna go for my jog in a bit.. m very happy to report that i've been going for my jogs earlier! No more 11/11.15p.m. jogs.. i try to go by 10.15p.m these days and it feels really good plus i've been taking my old route which is longer than the 11pm route.. can't take that route when i jog later cuz it gets kinda quiet.. Yay.. hopefully i lose some weight too.. ahh the never-ending battle with my weight and skin.. wat a bummer.

and the craziness of work continues.. its been a never-ending pile since i got back from my phuket trip ( which i will blog about soon enough).. wish i was as lucky as mal who wasnt dreading going back to work after our vacay. Can't wait for the CNY break.. wish i was going on another holiday though.. haha.. too greedy.

So the boyfriend and i broke up.. yep.. after almost three years im single again. Feels alright.. its definitely for the best. Had my first proper night out as a single gal ( i hate spelling it as "gal" but "girl" just doesnt have e same effect ya?) on Saturday and it was pretty awesome. Ended work then made my way to novena to meet kaartsy and we went over to latsy's house for some quality time wit baby T. We had lunch first at this cafe near latsy's house and the food there was really quite good and very affordable! I had this yummy veggie pasta for 6 bucks and kaart n i shared a veggie pizza that was 9 bucks and it was big enough for two.. Wish i had a nice cafe-ish chillout place near my house tooooooo. Actualli there's tons of eateries near my house.. just havent really explored la.. should get on that *makes mental note*. Latsy and shina's new place is soooooo nicely done up.. very very tasteful. We were hanging out in latsy's room for abit and would have probably just camped out there if not for triston repeating over and over about how he wants to go "twimming". TWIMMING! How cute la.. i'm so loving the fact that he's talking more and more.. the other day Aunty Nancy called and put him on the phone and he was like "yagi come house".. haha.. how not to love him madly.

I left to go home and get ready before meeting sho & kam.. we were suppossed to do dinner at Timbre but the place was so super packed and there was a major waiting list so we decided on good old BQ Bar instead.

Its been a while since i went to BQ and i was excited about the yummy falafel.. we got that and calamari to share.. so good man.. BQ rocks. Sho brought a bottle of champagne wine for us to share so the three of us made our way to UE square.. i wanted to drink by the river but my suggestion was veto-ed by the spoilers :( haha.. actualli thinking back i guess its a good thing we were at UE square instead cuz all three of us were too scared to pop the champagne so for ten minutes we were tugging at the Cork in an attempt to pop it gently. Ten minutes i kid you not.. Sho finally got it open hahah.. wish we had taken a video of the whole "process". The champagne was really really good.. i'm the kind that doesn't drink to get high.. i really actually enjoy my wine and champagne and was really lapping this one up.. needless to say i ended up a lil tipsy :) We decided to check out the scene at Gotham and got there at 2ish.. close to 3. Ok.. what is with the band!? No offence to anyone but i wasnt really feeling the band. Other than bumping into some friends that i havent seen in a while Gotham in my opinion was a flop.. hope its not indicative of the future of that place cuz its one of my favourite clubs.

We left Gotham at 4ish and made our way to JEANS!!! haha.. dont judge me.. i just knew it would be the happening ending to my night since Gotham was such a disappointment.. and we werent even planning to go up.. some of our friends were clubbing there so wanted to meet them after the club closed. Was pretty much an IJ reunion outside jeans la.. there's really too many of us running around.. not that i'm complaining :) After some bonding sessions and a couple of pep-talks we finally bit adieu to boat quay. I got home at 6.. wow.. its been forever since i hung out till that late.. it was good fun but i still stand by my "not so much into clubbing" policy so don't think i'd be repeating very often.. or maybe i don't know.. things don't always happen the way you plan so maybe i shouldn't speak to soon hey.. plus clubbing IS alot more fun when ure single and ready to mingle :)

First night out as a "single gal".. pretty much a success i would say.. thanks to everyone who rocked it. :)

2009 BABYYY

Happy New Year everyone!!!!!!!!!

I've been somewhat inspired by mali to revamp my blog.. i don't know, there's something about a new blog that makes you want to blog more. Was kinda sick of the layout of the old one.. and alot's changed so an update was much needed. Gonna get some sleep now.. work's been crazy.. will blog more tmw! *lovess*