-Besties-

its been a long time since ive posted updates on my life. Maybe its cuz nothing's been happening.. nothing interesting anyways. Its been a weird past couple of days.. depressing.. this weird annoying nagging feeling in me is not going away. I miss my friends. I miss my besties. I miss sho.. so much.. i need her right now.. right now when i feel like i'm losing so much.. and i need someone to talk too.. someone to turn too.. she's the only one who knows all the right things to say. Homesickness is the worst feeling ever.. cuz there's no cure. I wish i cud juz fly back now and see my girlz.. I think i'd be lost without them. The ones that r always there for me.. kaart - the nicest person in the whole world and an absolute sweetheart that i m so fond off.. malibu - my darling niece that surprises me with her affection at the most unexpected times.. sho- my total essential.. the one that i can pms on and mood swing with and she'd still be there for me at the end of it all backing me up. I dun think i realli ever tell em enough how much i love them.. how much i look up to them and admire them.. my inspirations. The ones that have saved me a countless times. The ones that make time for me n meet me no matter what they're doing when im depressed n need to talk to someone. I miss them lyk hell right now. Being alone realli is the worst feeling in the world. I guess my one consolation is that they're just a phone call away.. a phone call and three weeks away. I know that if they were here.. i'd b having one of the best birthdays ever..i remember my 20th birthday.. i had a quiet one watchin a movie n hangin wit sho in town.. n goin swensons for supper.. it was so low key.. but still so much fun.. juz me n ma shnowmie. I knoe i can always count on her for anything n everything. Shola.. ure amazing la.. ure always patiently hearing me whine abt paiyan.. and totally supportive.. i luff u. I cant wait to come back n chill laaa.. i juz wish ya'll were here.. i hate crappy birthdays.. i know its selfish but i on my bdae i want to be all abt me.. naturally. I make the plans .. n everyone else goes along with it. Isnt that the way it shud be? I wish ya'll were here for me to bully ya'll into doing something ridiculous for my bdae. I think im juz depressed cuz i know im gonna haf a crappy bdae.. its ok.. ya'll can make it up to me when i get back. I want a party.. ok.. juz da four of us.. Missin ya'll to itsy bits :(