the more i know.. the more i like. This is so damn bloody inconvenient. I do believe these things are mind over matter.. so it's just me being silly. But.. b.l.e.h.

I'm not sure why...

- that song reminds me of you
- i've been staring at that picture of us too many times in the last week
- i like u when i don't even know u
- i feel so alone when my friends are probably just a phone call away
- i know im meant for greater things
- im not living somewhere else
- i feel like absolute crap today
- i dont blog more often
- i love matt g so many much
- he got the lowest number of votes in american idol this wk even though he rocked the performance
- i still love 3T
- i'm still an eternal optimist
- period.

David Cook - Loves him and his voice and this song!


You say you gotta go and find yourself
You say that you´re becoming someone else
Don´t recognize the face in the mirror
Looking back at you

You say you´re leavin
As you look away
I know theres really nothin left to say
Just know i´m here
Whenever you need me
I´ll wait for you

So i´ll let you go
I´ll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me

Take your time i wont go anywhere
Picture you with the wind in your hair
I´ll keep your things right where you left them
I´ll be here for you

Oh and i´ll let you go
I´ll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me

And i hope you find everything that you need
I´ll be right here waiting to see
You find you come back to me

I can´t get close if your not there
I can´t get inside if theres no soul to bear
I can´t fix you i can´t save you
Its something you have to do

So i´ll let you go
I´ll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me
Come back to me
So i´ll let you go
I´ll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me

And i hope you find everything that you need
I´ll be right here waiting to see
You find you come back to me

When you find you come back to me
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Im quite an undoh.. all along i thought he was singing "when you find June" and now only i realised it's "when you find YOU" hahah ooppss :)

Currently listening to : Turn your lights down low

Turn your lights down low
Never ever try to resist, oh no
Oh let your love come shining in
Into our lives again
Saying: ooh, I love you
And I want you to know right now
Ooh I love you
And I want you to know right now
That I
That I
I wanna give you some love
I wanna give you some good, good loving
Oh I, oh I, oh I
I wanna give you some good, good loving

u did it again. More than anything i'm angry with myself.. for letting you get to me. I know i'm better than that.. i promised 2009 would be different and i'm bent on keeping it that way.

its been a rollercoaster of a week.. started off really hating the haircut and then after switching it up started to like it alot more.. got negative reviews.. and positive ones.. i mean i knew that people would be a little shocked that i chopped off all my hair but.. its amazing how some people can be so damn insensitive and tactless and just plain STUPID. I mean.. if you tell me my hair is not nice what am i suppossed to do.. its not a bloody outfit that i can go home and change right.. i mean if ure really so concerned then tell me like in a couple of months when my hair has grown and im in the safe zone la.. isn't that common sense.. tell me now for what. I kinda figured the girls would like it and the guys wouldnt.. but its something i wanted to do and i like it so really please don't come and volunteer information about how you think the cut doesnt suit me or that i look better with my previous haircut cause really.. I DIDN"T ASK FOR YOUR BLOODY OPINION. Why are people so kaypohhhh... and clueless.. do you think ure doing me a favour?? Can i please do you one and buy you a brain maybe??

That applies to people who i don't even know and din even ask for their opinions and just happily came and kaypoh-ly gave their worthless comments. To people that i DID ask what they thought... i believe the keyword is TACT. I think you can be honest yet tactful.. i dont think those two words are mutually exclusive no?

Sentence of the year : "Have you looked at yourself in the mirror?"
Isnt that classic!!!!

Hahah ok Mal so i DID blog about it.. i mean how could i not after we were so clearly given a sign that i should haha *winkwink*

Today was steph's surprise party for her 21st bday.. babygirl's all grown up! Happy Birthday darling.. was nice seeing the girls after so long.. i hate that i get to see everyone together like this only on Birthdays. The party was in the ballroom at Excelsior hotel.. i was quite happily stuffing my face with the yummy food. The after party was at Attica but i was missing my little gremlin ossie so Sho and I went to boat quay to meet her and we went to... Celebrities! Haha yea my first time there.. was ok la.. u know me and clubbing.. and also i'm secretly 55 years old so i can't really stay out after 1 a.m without yawning every 5 minutes. Damn unglam la.. sho and i ended up leavin celebs at 4.15.. i got home at around 4.45.. and now its almost 5.45.. and i shud go sleep. NITE!

P.S.. i feel alot better after my rant.. and i guess im not really angry with the ones that gave me the unwarranted opinions.. i mean i really think boys are just generally very clueless..the accquaintances and other random people that i'm not close to i can forgive. But one thing i really wont forgive is insensitivity from someone who is suppossed to calm your insecurities.

 

america are you kidding me. How can Matt be in the bottom freaking two laaaaa...

Sigh malibu.. i decided not to blog about "IT". hahah think its a waste of my time and energy no? Plus i feel alot better after our bitching session earlier so i think its all good now. Haters can keep on hating.

Ugh another boring friday night.. Mal just came over to thanni at my place b4 she headed out to Gotham.. and since i have work tmw i obviously cant join in the clubbing fun. So saddddd.. havent clubbed with her in so long and today would have been quite fun :( Ah well.. ive mysteriously contracted the flu so i guess its best i stay at home anyways.

Is everyone supporting Earth hour later today.. 8.30 to 9.30 p.m.. just for an hour guys so no excuses. I hear some of the hotels in Singapore are doing their part to get everyone involved i.e Happy hour during Earth hour.. candle-lit dinners etc.. Good on ya :)

lets get it onnnnnnnnn

oh matt.. wat a tease u are. Yes i'm 16 again.. im a full-fledged Matt Groupie!

On a less stalkerish note.. i cut my hair again! ha yeappp.. it was abit of a flop at first and i was reallyyyyyyy sad when i stepped out of the salon. Miserable to be exact.. i cried. Heh yea it was really quite a disaster.. and i couldnt even try to mess around with it cuz i had just rebonded my hair(yes im a sellout!) so couldnt touch it.. but on Monday night after an embear day at work(don't know if i was bein paranoid but cud have sworn ppl were bitchin abt my do) i came home determined to revamp.. and with some wax and shifting my parting from the left to the right.. i actually kinda like it now! And been getting some not so bad reviews.. so yea guess it's cool now.. still not totally what i wanted but hey at least i don't hate it. Yay :)

Matt is the bomb diggity in the diggydiggybombomb pantsssssssssssssssss

Something very interesting/weird happened to me today.. it was around 11a.m and i was on my way to work, and i looked up at the sky.. and i saw the moon! Is that normal??

YAYYYYYYY for Matt!!!!! And for Anoop Dawg! And for Jorge!!!!!

Today's episode of Idol was like THE nicest! The last part where Simon announces they'll be making it a Top 13 and that Anoop was in was so sweet rightttttt.. sigh.

Matt Giraud's in the wildcard round!!!! Gotta bring it baby!

M watching Gridiron Gang on cable now.. that Dwayne Johnson is a beautiful man.

im reallyyyyy hoping Matt Giraud gets in during the wildcard round.. helloooo doesnt anyone remember Georgia!?!? i literally melted.

how amusing.. i just saw an ad for a tutor, for JC1 econs, requirement - Econs degree. Ha. I have one of those.. sadly it is quite like a white elephant.. mostly because i am quite clueless in that whole department and still have no idea how i managed to get my bachelor's degree in Economics.. of course the fact that i barely passed every module isn't something to shout about. $400 a month for once a week lessons... that's good money man. Should i? What are the chances the student's as clueless as i am.. i could probably get away with my "knowledge" then. Sigh ok.. i'm not gonna wreck some smarty pants JC kid's life for a measly four hundred bucks.

i like my new hair.. but i think i need to straighten it again.. cuz the back part keeps curling up like a chicken backside. I need to find out how to blowdry nice nice like how the salon did for me.. i reallllyyy loved it the first two days after it was salonfied then last night i washed and blowdried it myself and i still like it but its just the back bit that's annoying.. and its not as smooth and healthy looking. How to get that salon look leh.... anyways my hair is so short so if i go to the hairdresser's just to wash and blowdry i'm sure it'll be like.. less than 15bucks? Maybe i can do tt once a week.. hmm. Washing my hair yesterday was the shiokest la.. i took ONE MINUTE to shampoo AND condition my hair.. how awesome is thatttttttt. I actually would like to go shorter at the back.. have it look more concave... i think i'm gonna keep this look for a month and then i'll get that cut. So eggcitinggg :)

the little one is in hospital.. some bacteria thing in his intestines i think.. Kaart and i went to visit him today at Gleneagles. He was still quite cheerful and all despite being on drips.. i'm sure that thing poking thru his hand can't be the nicest feeling in the world, but he's a trooper. Gleneagles is right next to botanical gardens so Kaart and i decided to be romantic and spontaneous and explore the gardens after leaving the hospital. Botancial gardens is sooo pretty man, i havent been there in like close to twenty years i swear! I really wanna go back for a picnic.. think it would be lovely on a nice sunny wkend afternoon with good friends and yummy food. The two of us were being very touristy and trying to take pictures of ourselves with the nice backdrops.. was quite fun la. It was a good day. :)

Yesterday was stock take.. i ended at 10ish then went to UE square to meet sho and some of her friends. Drinking at UE square before clubbing seems to be the tradition so there was some socializing and then we headed down to Obar. The last time i went there was last year for cheryl's birthday and i hadn't gone back since because i'm not a huge fan of that place.. but i've been hearing better reviews lately so decided to give it another shot. Actually i was having alot of fun at first and thought maybe i was abit unfair in writing it off .. but.. i dunno why la i think it's cuz i have a very low tolerance level and i get irritated very fast by the smallest things so after a while i was back to being anti O bar (through no fault of its own i'm sure).. i don't think i'll go back unless all of my favourite people are going.. or if its some really important person's birthday.

I miss liking clubbing. I mean.. my clubbing days were REALLY fun.. it's just not the same anymore.. think i need to find a new club that's got an older fun crowd. O bar was swarming with young farts. But.. i also like my chillout nights at BQ or dempsey..ugh. I'm like in this in-between stage.. i feel like giving clubbing another chance butttt it also seems quite futile. Actually.. this shouldn't be the biggest of my worries right now right.. yea. Shouldnt sweat the petty stuff.. and shouldn't pet the sweaty stuff. Heeee :)

i cutted my hairrrrrrrr!! I quite loves it. :)

auto-roaming is a bitchhhh! Just got my handphone bill and my roaming calls for the 3 nights i was in Phuket came up to 60 bucks! For like ten minutes! And now that i've been footing all my mobile bills with my own hard-earned cash i'm really feeling the pinch la. i'm thinking of cutting my hair tomorrowwww.. excited and nervous.. please love me still even if i look like a freak! bye bye long hairrrrr *sniffsss*

gong xi fa caiiiiiiiiii! The break was good.. slept alot.. ate alot.. went to Jesh's housewarming on Sunday..her house is G-O-R-G-E-O-U-S.. and has its own pool! Sigh. We had a great round of charades and hung out for abit b4 heading back to sho's for another fabulous round of taiti and "SNAP!"!! haha i love snap.. its so simple and uncomplicated.. and fun! On Monday i went to c triston for abit with kaart and aartsy then met mal and the rest to go gotham. Gotham again was disappointing.. lacking in something.. crowd? Yea i think it wasn't crowded enough.. the music's good though and i actually take back what i said about the band. They're actually pretty good although the sound system was kinda loud and that made it abit annoying to have to sit through. The saving grace was our own private area with the pool table that the rest discovered so we hung out there for most of the night.. left around 3ish with mal and sho and we decided to go for Prata.. after so long! Wow i cant remember the last time we had an after-clubbing prata date.. was definitely my favourite part of the night :)

Back to work today.. as usual i have a huge pile of work stacked up.. shall try to work my way through it over the next couple of days.. hopefully i finish everything by stock take this saturday so i can clear up my desk. Things are getting a leeetle too cluttered at my work station.. ah well it's no big secret that i'm not the most organised person around. Aunty nits is coming tmwwwww!!! Hopefully i get to see her though, she's coming at some un-godly hour like 3a.m. and wants to catch a catnap first so yea hopefully we get to do lunch or something.

........."It's for the best".. that's what ive been repeating like a broken record to everyone.. that and "It just wasn't working out" or "we were just too different". Can't wait for the months to pass so i can stop explaining to everyone what happened.. But.. also.. it's kinda liberating to talk about it sometimes.. i don't know. Soon it'll be old news. And that life we once shared would seem so distant.. and this nagging feeling in the back of my head will go away. Ah well..
I'm craving champagneeeeee.. maybe i'll get to do something fun this wkend ;) Singledom beckons!!!!

just got back from my jog.. decided to go for an early one today since i'm supposed to be hanging out with the rest later and i ate like such a peeg yesterday.. woke up feeling like crap man. The weather was so nice.. i don't usually jog in the afternoons cause of the sun but it wasn't burning today and there was a really nice breeze, it rained lightly for like 5 minutes then stopped.. was quite pleasant weather.

Watchin american idol now.. its so entertaining la.. there was this big dude who sang a michael jackson song and did some MJ "moves".. was bloody funny. Aahhh needs to go batheee.. laterzzzzz